Eclectic Lotus

Terrible Twos? I hear this phrase and I wonder what they mean. I always think that it means the toddler has it out for you and wants to secretly destroy your sanity. Now that I have a 31 month old child I know EXACTLY what it means. If this is terrible, I would hate to produce another human being as this seems pretty mild to me.   My son helps clean the house. He loves to swiffer and wants to learn how to dress himself. He likes to sing and dance. He says, "please"  and "thank you" Ain't happening. Uh oh! The BOI is awake! To conclude. . .

There have been many unpublished entries I have noticed. Life has been pretty chaotic with a very energetic 31 month old. When checking out this blog if you are still keeping up please check for older entries as I have tried when I can to update the older entries that should have went out.

 "Sympathy for the Devil" is currently a song I am listening to as I am in one of the many offices contemplating my life. I was let go from the office that I have been brooding over for the past two years and while I should be depressed, feeling like I am cursed and in tears I am actually excited!   Music always seems to get me right when I need it. For the past year, I have been listening to K LOV Contemporary Christian music and at times I have had phone calls with some sad news. I have become a warrior of prayer and thanking God daily for all He does for me and my family. I have recently been drawn to Coldplay "Adventure of a Lifetime" may be because that is what life is- an adventure! You work a job, you love a job, you hate a job, you go on vacation, you keep pressing forward when nothing else is going right, you suffer, you succeed because this is all what shows we are alive. You take the good and the bad and see it all as good and a purpose and continue to ...

Yes, I have anxiety but the medical world knows nothing about it. I try to display to my friends my confidence but I have yet to pull it out when it matters most. I think some of my friends knew this and headed for the hills when it came to hanging out with me or that I could be someone's wife and someone's mother and I have lots to do I guess as someone once told me, "You are a mother. You can't do everything."   So, of course trying to make my own dreams come true seems very much like a daunting task. I won't go too much into detail as I read in Napoleon Hill's book that you should never make public your plans. I guess this is more of an inspirational entry and less of a, "Hey, look at me! I am revealing myself to you for you to gawk at me." type of entry. I am preaching to the choir of you as well as myself. May be I have a new crazy that I have yet to identify with. Oh great, multiple personalities.   Take a deep breath and. . . GO FOR IT...

You always think that you are the odd couple that has that look like you aren't supposed to be with your family. I am happy that biracial families are being displayed on TV but they look like model families. The man is an extremely handsome black man and the woman is white. I have written a post about this earlier about the multicultural families that are not displayed on TV. Now that I walk around my neighborhood, I see them and they are not models or actors.    Today, I was getting my son ready to go home from swim class and I saw one of the most beautiful Black woman. She had small senegalese twists and a perfect white smile. She was getting her nine month old son ready for his first swim class. Her son was almost the same color as my two and a half year old and he had big, soft curls in his head. We talked and she was only a year older than myself but we never mentioned the fact that we noticed that our kids didn't look exactly like us- meaning that we had an unspoken con...

At almost 2 1/2 years old, my son weaned himself. It was almost ignored event as my son has went almost a month without breastmilk. He cries for it but never reaches for it as he prefers snuggles. One day, he said to me "No booby juice". I think my working long hours and school on the weekends contributed as mommy has been rarely seen these days. I didn't cry. I think I was ready more so than him. I was just tired and I had that feeling that I wanted my body back.

As February is heading to a close, there is so much I feel. . .hmmmm. . . I should say I feel like a battle that is coming to a close. May be the weather or the fact that I get around one hour a week to really check out my surroundings and see what is real and what is a mirage. Also, hubby is almost out of school and our son doesn't look like a vegetable. He is creative! He is social and he is active! He is bilingual which is great because there are times when I absolutely need jim to do something and when I say it on Spanish he seems to see my demand. Advice for multi cultural homes is to invest in the language you want your child to learn. A friend of mine stopped being scared and began speaking to her kids in French. She saw my non native speaking butt speak to my son and it inspired her. She wants to re learn Spanish just as I need to pick up on my French. I use the app Duolingo. It is free and when you understand the lessons it is pretty funny because those sentences are hil...